Everyone has a story, here is a brief recap of mine. I was not always a God fearing woman. However, I have always believed in God- at least to some extent.
My journey began as a kid who grew up in the Catholic church. This was my foundation. My parents made sure that my brothers and I knew who God and Jesus were and we attended mass pretty regularly. I completed the Catholic protocol from my first confession, to communion to confirmation. As I became an adult, at least by age, I ventured out into this world to see who “I wanted to be- when I grew up.” I went to college and earned some degrees and I had my share of fun. Although I always knew there was a God, I was not sure how I fit into His divine plan. So, I created my own plan. I became interested in all sorts of religions and spiritual practices from Buddhism to Wicca. Yes, Wicca. For many years I justified the reasons behind my curiosity and I continued to live a life that was less than pleasing to God.
In short, these journeys and explorations didn’t fill any of the voids that I had. In fact, leaning on my own understanding often left me confused, sick, scared, panicked and broke! Financially, my life was a complete mess. I sought out to please this world and gain the popularity of people. I incurred massive amounts of credit card debt and I traded in my cars every two years. This left me upside down in car loans with monthly car payments that exceeded $500. And, my cars were simple cars. It was not like I was driving a BMW for $500 a month. I had a Civic! My life was ridiculous. But, I was cute. I had a lot of friends and boyfriends and I was well educated- so I rationalized just about every action I made.
In 2008, an old flame and I decided to get married. In retrospect- I really wanted the dreamy beach wedding and the public response that came from me finally tying the knot! I had no clue how to be a wife. I had 4 roommates at the time and no desire to actually live with my husband. I basically wanted the prestige of getting married without the commitment. Although I thought I was a Christian, I did not know His love or seek His plan, at all, in my life. Obviously this was bad news for my marriage. Who wants a wife that refuses to move in with you and continues to live an UN-married life? I have to give my husband credit cause he did not throw in the towel for 8 months. But when he decided to, everything in my life changed- in an instant!! All of a sudden the reality of being a divorced woman consumed my life. Not seeing my step son was unbearable. It was at this time that my whole life, my heart, my mind, my soul just CHANGED! The only way I found peace was when I was on my knees in prayer. All I could do was pray. Every hour of every day. Thanks to God, my heart was not the only change that was made-Paul’s heart changed too. We reconciled, moved into an amazing house together, got pregnant, had a baby, received sole custody of my step son and we are now serving as local missionaries in Phoenix!
His Amazing Grace!
Proverbs 3:5-6 is absolutely Truth!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.
May you find His Grace today,